(Transkribiert von Leliwatch.com) (0:00 - 0:35) I hope y'all are good. I thought I'm gonna clarify some rumors about my private life that get spread around right now that are not so true. Hurt people hurt people. Sometimes you meet a person, yeah, that is maybe not so healthy and you want to help, but at one point you will figure out, okay, I can't really do anything about it. If I played someone with that kind of serious topic, I would be in a lawsuit right now, but I'm not in a lawsuit. There's a whole different story behind it as well, but it has nothing to do with social media. (0:36 - 0:54) I take care of it offline. People think they can hurt us so bad and bring some things on social media because people believe it so easily. We had it a couple of times. We always stay still. Not because we don't have something to say. I have a lot of things to say, but I don't need revenge. (0:54 - 1:21) I don't need like an ego fight because I know the truth and I deal with it off the camera. The reason why I speak out now is because some sensitive topics about my private life get dragged into it and they have nothing to do with it. You know, that I struggle in life is pretty obvious. I'm 22 years old. I live for the first time as well. The thing is, I'm so burned out from the last couple of years. (1:21 - 1:28) I'm burned out emotionally. I'm burned out work-wise. That's why I made a decision to have a little break this year. (1:28 - 2:10) That I believe in God is not a surprise and that I struggle with my sexuality is not a surprise either. But it's my story to tell. It has nothing to do on the internet. And if you want to judge, hey, you can judge. But it's not even your place to judge because you're judging me that I'm not so confident with my sexuality. It's my own timing. You saw me struggling. You think it's easy when the whole internet is just like bombing your comments. You look gay. You look gay. Is she gay? Is she gay? You need to be careful even to walk around with a girl that is just a friend. Because people take pictures and then everybody wants to jump on that kind of like rumor boat. (2:11 - 2:29) Yeah, I was 17, 18. I still have like little traumas from it and I need to deal with it right now. It's the same with the church. Yeah, I had people like telling me I go to hell. I'm a sinner. People don't want to hang out with me anymore just because I try to find love in a way. (2:29 - 2:53) Yeah, it's pretty hurtful as well. So that's why I'm not sitting here so confident and I know what I want because at the end I'm scared. But it's my story to tell. And I get that people struggle because I struggle as well. You know, I didn't grow up with a gay cousin. I didn't grow up in the city or even nowadays that you see it on the internet. (2:53 - 3:03) I know the googling. Am I gay? Am I not gay? I know that kind of thing. Because yeah, I was struggling and I didn't have anyone to talk to. (3:04 - 3:17) The thing is, for once in my life, I don't want to talk about it the whole time. I don't want to talk about my sexuality and I don't want to talk about believing in God. I'm not in a cult and I'm not homophobic because I had enough. (3:17 - 3:45) I don't have the energy anymore to even address this kind of thing. Because I don't have to because people will always believe other things. You see it on the comments. You believe some stuff where you don't even know the whole story about it. You know, someone is telling my private things. How would you feel if I would open up? No, if you would open up with your insecurities and I put everything out there on social media and it's something that you still struggle with. (3:48 - 3:58) No healthy person would do that because it's something you don't do. The thing is, for sure I go to a Bible school and you can judge me. You can say I try to convert myself. (3:58 - 4:13) Maybe I tried it at the beginning but right now I'm in a position where I'm like, hey, you know what, I accept the way I am and maybe I'm going to marry a woman, maybe I'm going to marry a man. But I believe in God and I will still go to a church. Even though if I face a person who has a problem with me because of it. (4:13 - 4:22) Because I can't make everyone happy. The people pleaser learned it the hard way. People will always judge and gossip. (4:23 - 4:35) But I don't feel judged because I still need time to accept the way I am. Because yeah, I still need to figure it out. So many people talked into my life that I don't even know what I feel anymore, you know. (4:36 - 4:49) And if you judge me because someone hurt you in a church, hey, judge me, but I didn't hurt you. You know, and I know that I don't force a religion on someone. But if you ask me what helps me in life, yeah, it is my faith. (4:50 - 5:10) But then don't ask me because I'm not going to stay quiet about it. Especially because a lot of people would give you a pill and say, hey, numb your feelings, but I'm not that person. And I will always invite people. When I go to a dinner, I will invite people. When I go shopping, I will invite people. Even if I meet up with friends, I will invite you because I'm not scared that someone takes my friends away. (5:10 - 5:40) And if I go to a church on Sunday, I will invite you as well because I love company, I love people around. If I see someone at home not doing anything, for sure I think it's a nice thing to be like, oh, you don't have any plans, you know, I'm going to go to a church, you want to join me? No? Alright, have a good day. That's how I am. I always invite the people, I always try to be a positive influence. But I guess, yeah, we all see it. If you're a positive person and try to be healthy, a lot of people try to push you down. (5:40 - 5:50) A lot of people try to put you in a negative light. But I know how I am and I know what I do. And I know with the stories that get put out on social media, not everything is true. (5:51 - 5:58) So with that being said, I wish you all an amazing day. And yeah, God bless you because I wish the best for all of you. (Transkribiert von Leliwatch.com)